Pushing Pause on the Pursuit of Happiness
For most of my life, I’ve been very good at chasing more—more goals, more plans, more accomplishments, more of whatever comes next. But lately, something feels different. I still have dreams (including one that’s somehow become an actual second draft of a book!), but I’m beginning to realize I don’t have to wait for those dreams to come true before I’m allowed to enjoy my life. Maybe I’m actually starting to understand this whole thriving thing!
And Yet
What happens when nothing happens? No breakthrough. No revelation. No miraculous answer to prayer. Just life happening somewhere between the plot points—between the prayer and the answer, between knowing something needs to change and knowing what that change is supposed to be. I don't know what any of this means yet. Maybe that's why I'm writing it now instead of six months from now when I can tell you what it meant. Because maybe faith in the middle isn't certainty about what happens next. Maybe it's certainty about who is still there while I wait.
How’s Jesus Holding You Up?
Sometimes faith isn’t the absence of fear. Sometimes it’s what we choose to do while we’re still afraid. On a morning filled with dread, worry, and worst-case scenarios, I was reminded that I don’t have to silence every fear or figure out what happens next. I just have to keep returning—to scripture, to trust, and to the God who is already holding what I’m trying so desperately to carry.